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The stories that speak to our soul begin at a home where things are good. Cinderella is happy with her father. The three little pigs have grown up and are ready to move on. Bilbo Baggins knows his shire. Adam and Eve walk with God in the garden. My story isn’t much different. There was a time and a place where it was so good. There was a community for me. And there was joy. We were filled with a sincere desire to do what God wanted us to do. We possessed explanations and understandings that went a certain distance. We offered security and tradition and laughter. For a lot of years, that was enough. I have this sense that it was also necessary. I have this surety, now, that it certainly wasn’t everything. There were some things that became increasingly problematic as time went by. There was a desire to package things up so very neatly. Sunday morning services were efficient and strategic. Responses to differences of opinion were premeditated. Formula began to feel more important than being real. A real desire for everybody to be one of us, but also a real sense that there is an us, and there is a them. They carried a regret that it has to be this way, but deeper than this regret was a surety that this is how it is. I began to recognize that there was a cost of admission to that group. There were people who sat at the door, collecting it. Those people wished they didn’t have to. But I guess they felt like they did have to. They let some people in, and they left others out. There was a provisional membership. My friends did possess a desire to accommodate people that are different… But it would be best for everyone concerned if they were only a little bit different. I did make many steps forward in this place. Before I went there, there were lies that I believed. Some of the things that I learned there, I still hold on to. But that place is not my home anymore. Those people are not my community anymore. There were times it was hard. I am engaged in a different community now. And I am working hard at finding a place in many different places now, embracing many different kind of families. I don’t always get it right. I am trying and I am learning and I am moving foreward. I have this sense that I am not alone in these experiences. I believe that we are tribe and we are growing. We are pilgrims, looking for a new holy land. Perhaps we won’t settle on the same spot of land. But if you’ve read this far, I am thinking that we are probably headed in the same general direction. I have begun this blog to talk about where my journey is taking me. In every space, we find people who help us along. And maybe we can get to know each other, here. We embrace ideas that provide a structure for the things we believe, and perhaps we can share these too. Maybe we can form a group, a tribe, a community, if we can figure out a way to work through the shadow of these kinds of groups, if we can bigger than the us-and-them ideas that have caused so much trouble in the past. As important as they are, I think the very nature of online interactions will lend itself to something equally powerful. I am stumbling onto these practices that my grandfathers and great grandfathers in the faith engaged in. I am learning about these attitudes and intuitions are so different than the kinds of things we call doctrine today. I don’t know about you, but I am running out of patience, and even interest, in conversations about doctrine. I hope that maybe you’ll share a little something about where your journey is taking you, and maybe our common joys and challenges might help each other along, and we might lift each other up. Thanks for doing this journey with me.

Exercise 52: Metta (Loving-Kindness Meditation)

Background

This is not the first description of a Loving-Kindness meditation here at The Faith-ing Project.  It was observed that the previous description though omitted a traditional and important element of the practice.

An important aspect of the traditional loving-kindness meditation is challenge to love people who we might have difficulties with.  The description below includes this element.

The English translations of the precise sentences to be used vary somewhat.  There is also some variance on the precise order and groups that those key sentences are applied to.  In particular, different practices will focus on the act of receiving love in different ways and at different times.  One aspect of this is where to wish ourselves those several statements.

It seems that one important element of this timing is precisely how we feel about ourselves.  Since the practice begins with the easy and works up toward the difficult, loving the self ought to be the very first thing some people do, and the final step for others.

Before you begin this practice, it is wise to have given a little bit of thought to who you will bring to mind for each of the following categories:

  • Someone whom you love very much.  They might be alive or dead.  It could be someone you see frequently or see rarely.  Mentors, parents, children, best friends, and significant others fall into this category.
  • Someone whom you feel ambivalent or neutral to.  This could be a casual aquaintance, a coworker, a distant relative, or someone whom you are growing apart from.
  • Someone who actively annoys you, or who you have to work at liking.  As your familiarity with this practice gradually increases, you might gradually attempt people who you more intensely dislike.

After you attempt this practice as written you might wish to change the order, or even research other ways to try this practice.

The Practice

  1.  Sit comfortably.
  2. Take 3 deep breaths: inhalations and exhalations.
  3.  Now bring to mind the person who you love to most.  See them in your mind’s eye wearing an outfit they would be likely to be in.  Hear their voice.  Bring to mind any scents or other sensations you might associate with them.
  4. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be healthy.”  Exhale.
  5. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be happy.”  Exhale.
  6. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be free.”  Exhale.
  7. Inhale.  Exhale.
  8. Bring to mind the person you feel neutral or ambivalent about.  See them as with as many senses as possible.
  9. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be healthy.”  Exhale.
  10. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be happy.”  Exhale.
  11. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be free.”  Exhale.
  12. Inhale.  Exhale.
  13. Now, bring to mind that person you struggle with.  Try and experience them vividly in your mind.  Be an interested observer to any feelings this brings up in you.
  14. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be healthy.”  Exhale.
  15. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be happy.”  Exhale.
  16. With your next inhale, think or say, “May you be free.”  Exhale.
  17. Inhale.  Exhale.
  18.  Now, it is time for you.  See yourself in your mind’s eye.  It might be helpful to try and see yourself through the eyes of the person you first focused on.  Or make an attempt at seeing yourself through God’s eyes.
  19. With your next inhale, think or say, “May I be healthy.”  Exhale.
  20. With your next inhale, think or say, “May I be happy.”  Exhale.
  21. With your next inhale, think or say, “May I be free.”  Exhale.
  22. Inhale.  Exhale.

Exercise 51: A Mindful Body Scan

Background: The body scan is a well-loved mindfulness exercise.  This is a practice which invites us to carefully survey the body and to explore how it is feeling.  One of the objectives is to compare how the different body parts feel. Those parts of us that feel relaxed are contrasted with the places we feel tense.   

It’s a powerful thing, to note what feels comfortable.  Just as watching the example of someone performing well is often more helpful than analyzing what is wrong, finding parts of the body which are comfortable allows us to use them as a sort of example in how to bring that comfort elsewhere.

 

On this approach, the soreness is simply noted.  Noticing has a strange kind of power in contemplation.  Sometimes, just the act of noticing is enough to make the situation feel better.  It is a bit like putting a band aid on the “owie” of a small child.

The exercise that is on the next page is written with this simple approach of merely noticing.  After you feel comfortable with this, you might try the following variations and see how they work for you.  These variations bring a more active focus to the places which do not feel comfortable.  

The first variation is to “breathe into” the hurt.   As we inhale, we imagine the breath going straight to the place that is sore.  Envisioning the breath coming to work on the painful place can be very effective.

The second  variation is to turn the attention to relaxing the area.  Here, we will the muscles themselves to relax. Sometimes it is helpful to begin with the surrounding area and work our way inward, toward the center of the discomfort.  

After a particularly good body scan, I become delightfully aware of the ways my body parts are all connected.  I notice the joints, ligaments, and places that connect one part of me to another. I get this sense of being a single, unified body rather than just a collection of parts.   

 

The Exercise

 

  •  Inhale.  
  • Exhale.
  • Inhale again, and turn the attention to the soles of both feet.  Explore them front to back, or left to right. Let yourself become aware of where they are and how they are feeling.
  • Now, draw your attention up through the tops of the feet.  
  • Become aware of the ankles and lower calves.  Continue to be aware of how these body parts are feeling.  
  • In your mind’s eye, see your shins, too.  
  • Become aware of the knees, and the area behind the knees.  Continue to draw the attention up to the thighs.
  • Remembering to continue to breathe deeply, now notice the pelvis, hips, and buttocks.
  • Bring your awareness to your lower back and abdomen.  
  • Draw your attention up, through the rib cage and shoulders.  
  • Inhale.  Exhale.
  •  Wiggle your fingers.  Bring your awareness to each finger and thumb.  Notice where they come to join the hand.
  • Feel your palm and notice the back of your hand.  
  • Continuing to breathe deeply, note your wrist and forearms.
  • Draw your attention to the elbow and upper arm.
  • Note your armpit and the place where your arm joins the body.
  • Inhale.  Exhale.
  • Turn your attention to everything below the neck.  You have become aware of that whole portion of your body.
  • Now, draw your awareness up the neck. 
  • Become aware of the jaw, and slowly draw your attention across your face.  Feel how your nose and ear sit in your skull. Become mindful of how your eyes and sinuses feel.
  •  Notice the back of your head, and slowly draw your awareness up through the very top of the scalp.
  •  Now, relax for a few minutes, enjoying the connection with your body.

 

 

Exercise 50: A Return to the Mantra

Background: These last few practices have been rooted in the experience that changes in my breath are not caused by “me” (whatever it is that I am!)  Rather, it is the universe breathing in me.

Click here and here and here to see these practices or to read more background into this experience.

There are some who believe that there is something sacred in the precise words chosen for the mantra.  This has not been my experience.  Part of the vision of The Faith-ing Project is that you might fall in love with a certain practice and then go to the source and context of that practice, though.  If the idea that there is something sacred inherent to the sounds chosen for a mantra resonates with you, I wish you peace as you explore that possibility.

The value I see in a Mantra is in the constant repetition of a word and phrase.  One thing that happens here is that the words come to individually seem suspect.  Do they mean anything at all?  After saying them over and over again, it feels as though they individually have no meaning.  And yet, the meaning is still there.  It seems to become bigger than the individual words.  This can feel like a metaphor for the nature of the universe itself, this wearing down of the boundaries between all things.

The Practice.

  1.  Find a comfortable position.  If you can, sit straight.  Place your palms upward, in a receptive gesture.
  2. Breathe deeply three times.
  3. With the next exhale, begin your mantra.  Say it repeatedly.
  4. With the inhale, continue thinking the mantra.
  5. Fall into a rhythm if you can.  Chanting can be very powerful.
  6. When you are ready, open yourself to the possibility that this breath is not your breath.  It is the universe breathing in you.  It is the universe breathing you.
  7. Continue this for a while, chanting your mantra, holding the possibility that the universe is breathing within you.
  8. When you are ready, try on the possibility that the mantra is not your mantra.  It is not you saying it.  The mantra is the universe speaking its truth in you.
  9.  Maintain this for a while: chant the mantra.  The words and the breath are not you or yours.  You are the universe’s instrument.
  10. When you are ready, on the inhale, hear the mantra still being said.  This is a goal for mantra-based meditation.  To see the speaking of the words as just taking up a mantra that is already in the air.
  11. Release the mantra and sit in a time of worldess union.

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Exercise 49: Observing the Breath

Background

If you wanted to divide up all the spiritual exercises, all the contemplations, all the ways of approaching of mindfulness that have ever been, you could find one convenient dividing line around what they do with the breath.  

Many practices begin by asking us to take charge of the breath. Generally speaking, these practices encourage us to slow down our breathing.  There are lots of reasons that this is a good idea.

As discussed above, it may not be the most accurate picture of the way things work though.

The other category of practices asks us to simply observe the breath.  

The act of simply tuning into the breath can be so much more difficult than it sounds.  It is easy to overthink the direction, “Tune into your breath without changing it.” Generally speaking, holding this instruction to tightly will lead to struggles.  In trying to be too literal we tend to unleash a series of questions and doubts.

As with so many things, entering these exercises in a light-hearted manner is wise.  If we accept that we will not be perfect at it, we will be able to observe our breath much more effectively.

Exercise 17: Observing the breath

 

  1. Create a safe, quiet space.
  2. Sit in a comfortable, upright manner if you are able.
  3. Tune in to your breath.  Do your best to accept it without changing it.
  4. Note whether you are using the mouth, nose, or both.
  5. Become aware of specifically where you feel the breath entering the nose or mouth.  How does it feel there? What is the temperature?
  6. Note the temperature as it comes in.  
  7. Extend this awareness of the feeling and temperature as the breath leaves you.
  8. Where does the breath end in your body?  Does your abdomen move? Your chest?
  9. When you are ready, increasingly bring yourself into this particular breath.  The one you feel right now. This breath, now is the only breath you can ever change.  It is wholly unique among all the breaths you will ever feel. Greet each breath. Find its uniqueness. 
  10.  Welcome the special breaths that follow in the same way.  Sit in this awareness for most of the time you have devoted to your practice today.  
  11. When you are ready, return to your everyday life.  But know that you can welcome each breath throughout your day.

 

 

Exercise 48: More Breathing Toward Oneness

Background: You might find this to be most effective after exercise 47.  In some ways, it is a follow-up to that exercise.

Our every day assumption is that our consciousness (ego, mind) is in control of things like our breathing.  The main evidence for this assumption is rooted in the idea that when I think “I am going to breathe slowly now.”  I do, in fact, start to breathe slowly.

However, it is worth noticing a few things about this assumption.  The first is that (thankfully) when we stop thinking about our breathing, we continue to breathe.  The second is that if we asked for an account of how we do things like change our breath or move an arm, we couldn’t give much more of an explanation than “well, I think about it, then it happens.”

There are some aspects of neuroscience that are beginning to endorse the idea that our consciousness tells a story about what is going on and our body, rather than causing those changes to take place.  In other words, there are good reasons to suppose that when we begin to breathe slowly, we think “I am going to breathe slowly now.” and assume our thought caused the action, when in fact, the opposite is true.

The Exercise

  1.  Find a relaxed position.  Generally speaking, this will be a seated position with feet flat on the floor and spine as straight as is comfortable.
  2. Notice your breath.  Allow yourself to be aware of it with out seeking to change it.
  3. Feel the inhale: notice where the breath comes in on the nostrils or mouth.  Observe the flow of air down the throat and into the belly.
  4. Feel the exhale.  Notice the difference in the temperature and moisture of the air as it leaves the body.
  5. Continue this for at least three more breaths.  Continue longer if that feels right.
  6. As you continue to observe this process, recall that a story goes that God reached down and breathed into a handfull of Earth.  After that breath, there was Adam.
  7. Observe the exhale.
  8. Continue this for two more breaths: God-in-the-universe is breathing you.
  9. Open your heart and mind to the awareness that other people and animals in your area (perhaps your family in other bedrooms, or the other occupants of the building you are in) are breathing, too; God-in-the-universe is breathing them.
  10. As you complete a second and third breathe with this awareness, continue to observe this breath being breathed in you.
  11. Open your mind and heart to the plants and even microscopic organisms all around you.  Some living things inhale oxygen and exhale carbon dioxide.  Others do the reverse.  See the world breathing in all these creatures.
  12. Sit in this flow and connection for as long as you would like.  
  13. Can you widen this network of connections?  Can you make it geographically larger?  Can you expand the nature of the interconnections.
  14. When you are ready, return to your every day world.  Hold on to the connections between the rest of the world that were deepened here.

 

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Exercise 47: Oneness Within a Web of Living Beings

Background:  Thinkers such as Ken Wilber have observed that it is somewhat arbitrary, the ways that we put importance on a single individual.  We are made of millions of cells.  The cells are arranged in tissues, the tissues are are arranged in organs.  The organs are arranged in organ systems.  The organ systems are arranged in organisms.  The organisms are arranged in communities.  The communities are arranged in ecosystems.  All the ecosystems, when taken together, form the biosphere.

We have consciousness of ourselves as individuals, of course.  But this seems like a small reason to put so much of our attention to one middle-level of this arrangement.  There is something to be said for the idea that the consciousness we think is running the show is in fact just giving us a report of the things that are already happening.

If you can do the following practice in the presence of a a plant, or better yet a tree, that is a definite plus.

The Practice

1.  Find a comfortable position.  Release your worries and expectations.  Place your phone on silent mode.

2.  Breathe in, through the nose if you can.

3.  Breathe out, through the mouth.

4.  Try to breathe in more deeply.  Place your hand on your abdomen and feel it move.

5.  Exhale again.  

6.  Take one last inhale, before we move in to the next step.  Can you make it your deepest?

7.  Fully exhale.

8.  Spend a moment considering a plant or tree.  Behold and love it.  Consider the individuality of this one specific plant.  See it’s leaves and branches.  Imagine the roots of the thing.  Allow your thoughts or eyes to really linger on this friend.

9.  With your next inhale, breathe in.  Recognize that some of the very air you breathed might have been made from that plant.

10.  With your next exhale, breathe the air out knowing this is what the plant will need.  It will inhale the carbon dioxide of your breath.

11.  Take two more deep breaths, connecting with the plant in this relationship of oxygen and carbon dioxide.

12.  When you are ready, try to erase the boundaries between yourself and the plant.  Can you imagine a level upon which you and the plant are not two seperate individuals but one common entity?  Experience a sense of oneness with the tree or plant.  It is giving you what you need.  You are giving it what it needs.

13.  Linger on this experience for as long as you need or want to.

14.  Widen this circle in your mind.  See yourself and this tree as a part of all plant-animals and animals within your area.  (perhaps this area is about the size of a city block.)  First, sit with the idea that they are in a perfect, reciprocal cycle of oxygen and carbon dioxide.

15.  The gasses, in a way, are just a metaphor for so much more.  Sit in your place in this system.   Make it larger, in your mind, if you wish.  First, broaden the meaning of relationship, knowing (but don’t bother listing) that we get more than just oxygen.  Then, broaden the size of the network.

16.  When you have made this network as broad, and deep as your mind will allow, sit with it.  In some important sense, all the living creatures in your mind, all the plants and the animals, they are one.

16.  If you would like, consider whether God is present within the animals or plants in this relationship.  Is God above them?  Or the movement of the matter and energy between them?  Both?  Neither?

17.  Hold this web of connection: you, other animals, plants, trees, God in your mind.  Take as long as you would like to sit as one part of this network of relationships.

18.  When you are ready, return in your mind to just you and the plant you begin with.  Consider the differences between yourself and the plant.  Try and hold to the idea that you are still one.  But the plant has specialties.  So do you.  The organism that is formed between the two of you is greater than the sum of your parts.  Think about the ways that you and the plant are such a good pair.

19.  When you are ready to dismiss this practice, thank the plant and move into your day, knowing that you can bring your mind back to your place in this tremendous network of beings.

 

 

 

Palm Sunday Email for the Apophatic-Cataphatic Exploration

This is from the Palm Sunday Email on the Lenten  email exploration of the Cataphatic-Apophatic.  If you would like to receive the last couple emails in this series, email otherjeffcampbell7@gmail.com

Palm Sunday is celebrated one week before Easter.  It is a commemoration of Jesus’ triumphant entry into Jerusalem.
Today’s spiritual exercise combines elements of Lectio Divina (Sacred Reading) and visualization.  This is a very cataphatic practice, dependent, as it is, on the words.
This practice begins with a reading of the entry in each of the four gospels.  It is rather lengthy and cumulative in nature.  I invite you to go as far and deep as you desire.  Particularly if you are going to return to this practice daily (the next email will arrive Wednesday) you might wish to stop at some point along the way each day, and go a bit further each day you return to it.

The Exercise:

  1. Find a comfortable space.  Inhale.  Exhale.
    2.   Read Mathew 21: 1-11.  The NIV translation is below.  If you prefer a different translation, by all means use that one.  As you read this first account, simply read for an over-arching understanding.

They brought the donkey and the colt and placed their cloaks on them for Jesus to sit on. 8 A very large crowd spread their cloaks on the road, while others cut branches from the trees and spread them on the road.9 The crowds that went ahead of him and those that followed shouted,

“Hosanna[b] to the Son of David!”

“Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”[c]

“Hosanna[d] in the highest heaven!”

10 When Jesus entered Jerusalem, the whole city was stirred and asked, “Who is this?”

11 The crowds answered, “This is Jesus, the prophet from Nazareth in Galilee.”

  1. Take another deep breath.  Read the second account: Mark 11: 1-11.  This time, try and furnish the details of what it might have looked like.  Take a moment to create this image in your mind and really see the colors and surroundings. 

When they brought the colt to Jesus and threw their cloaks over it, he sat on it. 8 Many people spread their cloaks on the road, while others spread branches they had cut in the fields. 9 Those who went ahead and those who followed shouted,

“Hosanna![a]”

“Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”[b]

“Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David!”

“Hosanna in the highest heaven!”

11 Jesus entered Jerusalem and went into the temple courts.

4.  As you read the following passage from Luke, 19: 28-44  do your best to hear the sounds.  Imagine the tone, volume, and timbre of the voices as they say these things.  Place other sounds in the scene.  Try and add this to the picture you formed from the last reading.   It is not important that your imagining is historically accurate.

They brought it to Jesus, threw their cloaks on the colt and put Jesus on it. 36 As he went along, people spread their cloaks on the road.

37 When he came near the place where the road goes down the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of disciples began joyfully to praise God in loud voices for all the miracles they had seen:

38

“Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!”[b]

“Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!”

39 Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, “Teacher, rebuke your disciples!”

40 “I tell you,” he replied, “if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out.”

41 As he approached Jerusalem and saw the city, he wept over it.

  1. Take a deep breath in and out.    As you read the following account (which comes from John 12:12-19) place yourself somewhere within the scene.   Furnish sensations of smell, touch and taste:  Imagine the temperature, the texture of your clothes on your skin.  Consider the scents that might be in the air or the residue of flavors left on your tongue in such a scene.
    The next day the great crowd that had come for the festival heard that Jesus was on his way to Jerusalem. 13 They took palm branches and went out to meet him, shouting,

“Hosanna![d]”

“Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”[e]

“Blessed is the king of Israel!”

14 Jesus found a young donkey and sat on it, as it is written:

15

“Do not be afraid, Daughter Zion;

   see, your king is coming,

   seated on a donkey’s colt.”[f]

16 At first his disciples did not understand all this. Only after Jesus was glorified did they realize that these things had been written about him and that these things had been done to him.

17 Now the crowd that was with him when he called Lazarus from the tomb and raised him from the dead continued to spread the word.18 Many people, because they had heard that he had performed this sign,went out to meet him. 19 So the Pharisees said to one another, “See, this is getting us nowhere. Look how the whole world has gone after him!”

  1. Breathe again, deeply.
    7.  Ask God if there is anything you should be noticing from these accounts.
    8.  Re-read one or more of them.  Spend some time with God on what you might be meant to learn, here.
    9.  Take another breath.
    10.  Now, see a second layer to this whole passage.  View the donkey as a symbol of the disciplines and practices you use to get closer to God.  (Disciplines and practices can be formal, like this exercise.  Or informal, like the act of loving the people around you.)  See the city of Jerusalem as a symbol of your heart: this is also a place Jesus makes a triumphant entry into.  All those laying down their cloaks and palm fronds, and cheering are the people who have had a role in shaping who you are and where you are today.  Re-envision this, either in your imagaination or by re-reading this account.  But replace the faces of the crowd with the people who have loved and supported you; see that donkey as all the things you do to get closer to God; see the city of Jerusalem as a stand-in for you.  Replay this scene in your imagination, with the senses fully engaged.  Or re-read one of the accounts.
    11.  After Jesus’ entry into the city, spend some time in quiet communion.
     

     

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