Background: There are so many sorts of deaths that we experience. The possibility of resurrection is not a thing to be taken lightly. We know that the disciples experienced the time between Jesus’ death and return as three days. We don’t know how long this time of death was to Jesus. What know that losing things is hard, even if there is some legacy to it, even if this good thing will return in some way. Sometimes, it’s so hard to make it through the cold, lonely winter; and making it through is the only way we make it to the spring.
You might turn this meditation into a holy reading practice. You might begin with the stories of the crucifixion. You might consider the stories of Jesus’ ressurection, too. But these are not necessary, particulary if you are familiar with the details of these stories.
- Release your stresses and worries for this time. Place your feet flat on the floor.
- Place your hand on your abdomen so you can feel it rise and fall as you take three cleansing breaths.
- The next several steps will invite you to consider a number of aspects in your life. Give yourself as long as you need to for each of them. Try and feel them deeply. Notice how your body feels as you experience each. Try to consider it from every angle: family and friends, work and play, spiritual and profane. Let yourself linger on them, if that feels helpful. Relive these with your senses; hear voices, feel the temparatures of the rooms where key event happens. Remember the way someone smelled when you were with them, or the taste of food or drink in your mouth as you experienced pivotal times.
- First, consider the places which are in transition in your life. What are some things that seem like they are on their way to changing.
- Next, think about the between-places, the liminal spaces that you are occupying. What are some areas that it is difficult to know what the future hold? What are some ways you are uncomfortable in the unknown.
- Where are the uncontrovertible deaths in your life? What are some things you have lost? What are some things you are grieving and mourning?
- Now, consider the idea of transitions, liminal spaces, and death again. Are there any of these that you are more difficult to admit? Pass through your life a second time and your mind and explore the possibility that there might be certain areas you are trying to hide from yourself. Is there any deaths it’s time to get honest with yourself about?
- Feel yourself transported 2,000 years. Find yourself overlooking a hill, with a cave, and a rock that has been moved over the mouth. Jesus is buried in their. You loved him. Feel the lament of his disciples. They did not know how the story ended. They knew only that he was dead. They were alone. They were afraid.
- Sit in this time for as long as you need. Let your feelings be about the dead Jesus. Let your feelings be about the loss in your own life. See the world from the disicples eyes, and yet, let it be fully and authentically you. Let this be a timeless time, let it continue for as long as it needs to. The clock will not accurately measure this time you spend beholding the tomb.
- Take three deep and cleansing breaths. Check your body. Begin with the feet and work your way up to your calves, knees, thighs; turn your attention to your pelvis, belly, back and ribs. Notice your fingers, hands, forearms, upper arms. Let your attention move to the shoulders, neck, face, and scalp.
- When you are ready, return yourself to that setting. But the stone is moved. A blazing figure is atop the boulder. Be open to the possibility of resurection.